Things are tough except for…

Three weeks in and my 'trucker' is getting there!!!

…my moustache.

Most things are tough right now, except for my moustache. It’s the end of Movember Week #3 with ten days to go and I’m rocking my first ever ‘trucker’ in aid of cancer awareness. Jan still won’t kiss me, but, it’s a price I have to pay.

Let me know what you think.

In other news…

Gym – Well, it’s been up and down. A couple of weeks ago was a disaster, but, this last week, I got back to my routine of early morning gym sessions. Five in total and I felt great for it.

Food – Terrible! No real planning, no real effort. Kind of eating what I want. I could make excuses, but, I won’t, so let’s not go there!!

Needless to say, once again, with ten days to go to ‘weigh day’ I’m not hopeful. Scratch that, what I meant to say was, with ten days to go to weigh day there is no way on God’s green earth I am going to lose weight in November.

Question is, do I weigh myself and actually see the disappointment, or leave it until next month? I reckon at least another three or more pounds to add to the two pound I gained last month. I’ll be honest, my head is not in the (food) game and this is my complete and utter downfall. Real life is ‘finding me out’. It was easy when I didn’t have a job!!!

I’ve been avoiding blogging and facebooking because I’ve got nothing good to say and consequently I’m feeling like my whole ethos is a sham. Weight loss obviously is my main focus. If it wasn’t, I’d be able to see my way through this.

Sorry guys, I’m feeling a tad negative right now 😦

Anyhoo, don’t listen to me, cos really, I know “I Can Do It…!” I just need to turn this corner and with God’s help and your continued accountability, I will.

A big thanks to some fellow bloggers who have checked in on me during my days of hiding. I really appreciate your thoughts and support.

I’m gonna try and keep blogging no matter how I feel. Can’t promise as I don’t feel good about myself.

I’ll do it though, I’ll get back on track!

Adios amigos,

Paul (Kracker)



About paulbentley

My name is Paul Bentley and I started my blog in May 2011. I live in Liverpool in the North West of England, UK – I have always had ‘issues’ with my weight! When I got to 27st 13lbs (177kgs or 391lbs) I finally decided that ‘enough is enough’ and I need to make changes. As part of the process I decided I need to make myself accountable, so I’ve decided to be accountable to you. Thanks for offering ;-)
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10 Responses to Things are tough except for…

  1. Well Mr. Paul, let me assure you that you are not alone in you ups and downs. And this my friend is why you must keep blogging. It lets others see that you don’t just make up you mind to one day make a change and BINGO your life changes, it reminds us all that it is a constant and possibly life long struggle, but that greater health is an ongoing effort. Letting others see your weaknesses allows them to do the same. It is not necessarily the post where you share the big triumphs that people love the most, but rather the post that show the truest heart. God wants you to be healthy. You are not in it alone. Press on brother!

  2. Sue Dunning says:

    Paul, Don’t beat yourself up. There are always set backs on any (hate to use the word, but..) journey!! You have done so well and been such an inspiration and that doesn’t change just cos you’ve had a bad month (or two!). God puts obstacles in our paths to make us stronger by working out how to overcome them with His help. Keep going honey, with all our love x

  3. Sue Dunning says:

    p.s. Like the moustache, but don’t blame Jan for not kissing you………….I wouldn’t let Dom anywhere near me 😉

  4. Mark78130 says:

    Paul, I’m exactly where you are right now. I’ve decided to do the best I can nutritionally through the holidays and then really kick into high gear after the New Year. I’ve been very busy with a huge project the last several weeks and have been focused on that and not much else. Also, I have not weighed since September. My clothes and my wedding ring are still loose and I still have good energy so I’m not going to sweat what a little box says right now. I say take a break from the scale and reduce your stress right now.

    Best wishes,

  5. Andie says:

    It’s a marathon, not a sprint. You CAN do it!

  6. J. says:

    “Question is, do I weigh myself and actually see the disappointment, or leave it until next month?”
    Yes otherwise you’ll have no benchmark for the month after to keep you honest.

    “I’ll be honest, my head is not in the (food) game and this is my complete and utter downfall. Real life is ‘finding me out’. It was easy when I didn’t have a job!!!”
    I’m not sure where the issue is, but perhaps the wife can help out by packing a few lunches for you or some such. Food is a pretty critical part of it – it’s way easier to not eat crap than work it off. If you had to focus on gym or food, food should win.

    “Weight loss obviously is my main focus. If it wasn’t, I’d be able to see my way through this.”
    So it turns out to be important to you. You know what – don’t feel bad – just be honest with yourself. Heck it’s the focus for most of the people with these blogs so no shame. But now that you can be honest with yourself, you can deal with the issue.

  7. davidisfat says:

    I’m with J. on this one Paul. Go ahead and weigh in, then take this as an opportunity to set some new goals. You’ve achieved quite a few non-weight loss related goals over the past several months, but now that your focus has shifted to weight loss, perhaps it’s time to set some related goals and develop a plan to achieve them….what you eat is the key, and you can do it.

    Re-dedicate yourself to your mission; it seems to me you have allot of support in both your real-life circle, as well as here.

    Kindest regards,

  8. Andy P says:

    Hello stranger ! well ,,,,, if im gonna be totally honest i wouldnt kiss you either !!
    but im fussy like that !
    so, as for your new healthy lifestyle ,or lack of it , been there many many times and im there yet again right now , but i wont give up ! just as you wont ! this aint a quick fix , this journey is for life , … Damage limitation paul ,, it doesnt matter if fall off as long as you keep climbing back on !!

  9. I’ve fallen off the wagon too. I think its the dark and cold nights. I think we need a Christmas challenge to get us motivated. Any thoughts?

    • paulbentley says:

      We’ve not fallen off, we’ve just fallen asleep at the wheel a couple of times, but, thank God we keep waking up before we crash out!!!

      I’m starting my NFA8 again as of tomorrow. No food after 8pm really worked for me. Late night snacking was starting to hurt me again.

      We can do this, we’ve both come a long way!!!

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