Guys, I’ve just read back tonight’s post and it’s a bit random 🙂 Bare with it and see what you think. All I can say in my defence is this, this is a really difficult issue for me. Some people may not understand why, but ‘porkers’ everywhere will empathise. Happy reading…
Another river crossed today at the gym. I don’t use the rower that much as I like to do my fat burn cardio on the treadmill, but, as the gym has got busier, they have restricted treadmill time to 20mins. What’s that about! Anyway, I ended up having to do my cardio between the treadmill, bike, cross trainer and rower. One of my rivers was ‘Rower – 2000m in under 9 minutes’. Today I did it in 8min 43sec – Result!!! 🙂 Now for the main post 😦
So what signs am I reading? Well, I’m struggling a bit guys. I’m ‘gagging’ for chocolate all the time lately. I’ve had a fudge and the occasional chocolate wafer and it’s not really satisfying a ‘treat’ mentality. I think it’s actually opening the door to me just wanting more.
I suppose I’m coming to a crucial stage in my journey. I’m over two months in (today is the first day of week 10) and I’m on the outer rim of ‘the fad factor’. I’m convinced I’m not fadding, but these food feelings are consistent with someone who is craving their old normality. Are they, am I? Have I just been showing fad infused self discipline these last weeks and now I’m wanting my old food life back.
I suppose it’s time to remind myself again of what I’m doing/not doing here:
(1) I’m adopting a ‘healthier’ lifestyle
(2) I’m NOT on a diet
(3) I’m trying to find a balance
(4) I’m making exercise and activity a part of who I am
(5) I’m not in a race to lose weight
Some random thoughts as I write…
Stop putting myself under pressure. Stop wanting even better results. So what you may lose less weight this month than last month. Eat the damn chocolate and still go the gym tomorrow. This is for life. Stop killing yourself over weight loss.
Fundamentally the problem is that I’m ‘craving’ but I’m conflicted with concerns about weight loss. Scared that if I eat a Double Decker or a Dairy Milk I’ll lose less in June than I did in May. Maybe I need to have a bit of a binge. As long as I still exercise (gym, joddle, squash etc) and walk (marina) I’M STILL A CHANGED PERSON. Yes?
What is the answer? Is it really that simple? Find the answer to the problem and everything will be okay. Let’s look at it.
Problem 1: I want chocolate
Problem 2: I’ll lose less weight
Part Solution: What if I just forget about Problem 2. Square that circle, get back to basics. THIS IS NOT ABOUT WEIGHT LOSS. Forget about how much you may or may not have lost by the end of June. Don’t compare, stop worrying. Accept that you are ‘healthier’ because of your exercise and activity ALONE. The changes in food and eating is a bonus.
Okay, one down, one to go. Recap.
Problem: I want chocolate
Solution A: Eat it. Still go the gym, still go for walks. Don’t dwell on the fact you ate it and don’t worry about weight loss.
Advantages: I get to eat chocolate. I don’t beat myself up. I carry on.
Possible Pitfalls: I’ve given in to a craving. I’m really disappointed with myself. Possibly, I eat it tomorrow as well and the next day and the next day and the…
Solution B: Don’t eat it. Still go the gym, still go for walks. Don’t dwell on it, get over it.
Advantages: I’ve overcome a craving. I’ve kept my food intake good. Maybe I’m stronger for the next time.
Possible Pitfalls: I continue craving. I give myself stress about it. I end up binging.
To be honest with you, I don’t even know if any of the above makes sense.
Tell me what you think?
Here’s my final thoughts…
The signs I thought I were reading, were the signs that I was craving again. Maybe I need to concentrate on other far more important signs. I’m doing great! I’m a changed man! I’m loving doing exercise and being active. I am a shadow of my former self. Or, should I say, my former self is a shadow of who I am today.
I’ve always talked about being ‘healthier’ not ‘healthy’ and that’s deliberate. I can be and I am being, ‘healthier’. I can still eat junk (occasionally) and still be (far) healthier than I used to be. Maybe I’ll eat the chocolate, maybe I won’t, but I WILL go the gym tomorrow and I WILL go for a walk around the marina.
These are the signs I should be focusing on.
“I Can Do It…!”